I’m trying

thblckln:

to make mixtapes, to finish video projects, to make music, to post old things on tumblr, to write…

I’m trying BUT I’ve this particular talent of making every projects I undertake more complex than it truly is. I’m unifortaly suffering from the Very Slow Artist Syndrome. It’s not only about perfectionism but mainly about beginning lots of things, being lazy, wanting everything to be yet done, and feeling like I’m doing everything wrong. I don’t even wan’t a good result, I just want one. But when I try to finish something it always looks like a drafts of a new thing. I fucking try to structurate my though but it’s hard, it often goes in so many direction my project finish to look like a big mess of nothing. 

Please be indulgent, it’s not my fault if I only post few shitty things. Trust me I can make great things, if only… Sometimes it goes well but then I realise it is not as good for others as it is for me, I feel that people don’t seize the things I put so many effort to create. But that is mainly a problem for me and less for you, who care about not seizing the things I make? In fact there’s no problem, they’re all in my head.

#alexdonotreblogthisialreadyknowwhatyouregoingtosay

shhh just listen to me okay

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yes basically the only thing i was going to say is that this is the reason why i don’t have big projects. The only big project i have is the interactive fiction and well, it hasn’t moved for nearly a year now so yeah.

Small projects, and not giving much of a fuck is the way to go imho.

or maybe what you’re doing is perfect what do I know